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We Used to Cut a Cotton Bush as a Christmas Tree
“Llegaaaaa Naaaavidadddd y yoooo sin tiii ….”
Abuelita opened another Christmas
with her scratched Buki cassette, dark clouds
wrinkling below her cheeks. Opened it
with her coconut-colored box, inside,
the plastic Christmas tree you sent us. Again,
I helped her build it. I don’t have to
match the red or blue paint on each branch
to the paint on the trunk no more. I know
where they go. I don’t know where
you get your tree. ¿Do you really climb
up a snowy hill with a saw? Abuelita doesn’t
let me choose ornaments from the box
you sent. She never hangs old Christmas cards
either. And every night our lights play this:
“… recuerdo el día en que te perdí.”
[Creciendo Means Ordnance]
here the angels of bomb shells
a maze of them
stacked on each other
honeycombs of them
and children climb as they once did mango trees
cradling those smooth and cold dolls
pull an angel from its honeycomb
hear the crescendo of saucepans struck with spoons
what they sing of rain
que llueva que llueva
la virgen de la cueva
los pajaritos cantan
las nubes se levantan
and then their roped feet
sing yes sing no and the angels
fall
[Rake Our Wreaths]
this has to do with the between one leaf and another
with our holiday that’s a footprint cypress carnations jasmine
night is our skin shut with wax a rabid dog is our mouths
our processions of candles inside the smell of vodka bottles
this has nameless crosses there’s not enough land to bury
because beds and coffins are thornless rosaries no one prays to
and this has to do with sometimes how sometimes wreaths are sickles