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The Happiest Place on Earth is Norway
Portland never cracks the top
one hundred, though many
move here after visiting
between July and September
when the sun is out,
and those same people leave
because the sun is never out
the other nine months, and buy
into the wrong neighborhoods
because someone once wrote,
there are no bad neighborhoods,
and heroin is rampant here,
antidepressants, I use “rampant”
because my mother always says
rampant when talking about drugs
and you know she’s never done
drugs because she’s using
a word that should only be used
when speaking about murder,
the spread of disease, Godzilla,
I have friends, Christ, I have friends
who have inhaled pills and syringes,
though most of them are dead now,
their bodies opening and closing
like dryers in the Laundromat.
Needles
Thanks, nurses, ahead of time
for shepherding me into the vacuums
of blood. I stayed up all night
to barracuda operas, receptionists
tacking bags of plasma to the pegboard
before calling my name.
Today my veins, tomorrow
the Pacific Ocean. When one nurse
whispers, Let’s try the stomach-
Am I dreaming? That watercolor
of a parasol, the red one, the platelets
those painters are spraying
across the street, my niece’s bowl
of spaghetti turning over
on the sofa. Little frightens
more than two nurses
fumbling with my veins
like a pair of jobless teenagers
with a metal detector, scanning
a soccer field at night
for buffalo nickels, cursing
each other in the voodoo dark.