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Rebecca Gayle Howell is a poet, translator, and documentarian. Her poems have appeared in such journals as Ecotone, The Connecticut Review, Numinous, and the Journal of Feminist Studies in Religion. Her documentary work has been collected in the anthologies Plundering Appalachia (EarthWise) and The Artist as Activist in Appalachia (U of North Georgia P), and she was the photographer for Arwen Donahue’s This is Home Now: Kentucky’s Holocaust Survivors Speak (UP of Kentucky). Currently, she is an MFA candidate at Drew University and is co-translating, with Husam Qaisi, Amal Al-Jubouri’s Hagar Before the Occupation/Hagar After the Occupation. She sits on the faculty for the BFA in creative writing at Morehead State University, in Eastern Kentucky.
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Husam Qaisi was born in Amman, Jordan, and moved to the United States in 2004. While In Jordan, Qaisi was a successful businessman and tradesman of electronics and had sustained a love for poetry and literature since childhood. Currently, he is co-translating, with poet Rebecca Gayle Howell, Amal Al-Jubouri's Hagar Before the Occupation/Hagar After the Occupation.
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My daughter before the occupation
used to ask me why we were here
I called it exile She called it my country
She says If we're in the majority, why did you abandon our home?
All my answers dropped into her questions
until her country was squandered and mine, deported
ابنتي قبل الاحتلال
كانت تسألني عن سبب ِ وجودنا في بلد أُسمـّيه منفى
و تـُسمـّيه بلادي
تقول إذا كان السـَّوادُ بلادنا فلماذا هـَجَـرْتِ بلادي
سقطت كلّ أجوبتي في
أسئلتها حتى ضاعت بلادها و هـُجـِّرت بلادي
My daughter after the occupation
knows no one but her grandmother
whose face has more wrinkles than the city's face
And that's all she wants to know
ابنتي بعد الاحتلال
لا تعرف غير جدّتها التي تجعّدت أكثر مما تجعّد وجه
مدينتها
و لا تريد أن تعرف أكثر من ذلك
My husband before the occupation
He stumbled between his fear and his fire
I was slave but his mistress, lady
His name, a tattoo of my pain
His past, a crematorium for my poetry
Once upon a time, my husband—
زوجي قبل الاحتلال
كان متردّداً بين رعبه و قلبه
كان يسمّيني أمـَة ً
و يـُسمّي غريمتي السيّدة
كان أسمه وشماً لمحنتي
كان تاريخه محرقة لقصائدي
كان يا ما كان
كان زوجي قبل الاحتلال.
My husband after the occupation
I said to my husband—
Be like a brother to me
Let's not wet our marriage bed with even one drop of happiness
The Mujahideen, now in our house,
would smell love's musk, our sweat
They'd behead anyone
who had both love and breath
زوجي بعد الاحتلال
قلت لزوجي الذي كان من قبل أخي
لن نحتفلَ بالحبّ و لن نضمّخَ سرير زواجنا بالفرح
لأن "المجاهدين" الذين دخلوا حياتنا
سوف يشمّون رائحة الحب
ويقرّرون قطع رؤوس كلّ الأزواج الذين يشبهوننا
My heart before the occupation
— A spider
Her web, appearing so old across my door
the informants pass by, confused
She seduced me into this cold cave
but kept me alive with her warm unknown
قلبي قبل الاحتلال
عنكبوت ضلّـل المخبرين عن المعنى
ودثـَّرني بغوايةِ الغموض
My heart after the occupation
—A prisoner, an escapee teasing
and laughing at the shackled rest of me
She flies into her new freedom
while I choke
while even my gift to breathe is bound
قلبي بعد الاحتلال
فرحاً بحرّيته
التي غصـَّت و تقّيـأت موتي