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Even Then I knew
for Lisa Fay Coutley
Our mother was often desperate
because of my brothers and me—once
she threw the dish drainer at Charles,
slapped the back of Bill’s head so that
his face plopped down into his spaghetti
and what did she get for that? More boy
guffaws in our victory over her self-control.
Our mother wore little mascara, served her sentence
of three sons in a house at the end of a dirt road
in a time of no post-it notes, two channels on TV,
no shrinks, no antidepressants, and her only role model
was Mrs. Perkins who one afternoon rode Toby’s bicycle
down Church Hill, skirts fluttering over her thighs,
to buy a six-pack of Pabst Blue Ribbon. Decorum
meant everything to our mother, and if someone had told
my brothers and me that mothers can drive away,
that would have frozen us in place like a game
of statues before Charles would have said Oh yeah,
and where would she go? and Bill would have said Maybe
down to the Post Office? And me? I’d have been
scared, because I loved her way more than my Roy Rogers
silver cap pistols with their white fringed holsters,
but finally I’d have found something real
funny to say.
Sex Sentence
I opine most women feel
vaguely erotic almost
all the time whereas men
sporadically feel
specifically erotic
when stimulated by certain
visual phenomena
knowingly or unknowingly
created out of the vaguely
erotic (and often witty)
ladies’ fashion impulses
into which I dare not delve
for fear of pissing off some
dear friends but generally
related to the subtly
revealed in juxtaposition
with the enticingly
concealed, so that in ideal
circumstances a vaguely
erotic aura engages
a specifically erotic
potential thereby
producing a sexual
combustion wished for by both
parties, though mathematically
speaking the ignition
occurs randomly more
often than by design, thus
resulting in awkward, sad,
idiotic, bizarre, unpleasant,
sometimes even felonious
behavior, the possibility
of which so discourages
women they seek the company
of other women so that
the vaguely erotic may
be safely manifested
in conversation and so
frightens men they go back
to Manland where they hang out
with their brothers & concoct
fabulous narratives
of their specifically
erotic adventures
& astonishing triumphs.
Homothology
Bird bams window behind him,
startling a Jesus out of him,
so he stands, steps out, finds
a fist-sized finch knocked still,
scarlet neck dangling its head
in the slot between bench slats.
Our man’s partially evolved
empathy kicks in, along with
some guilt—his feeder summoned
the bird to his porch—and a desire
to hold so small a thing. Ever so
carefully he lifts the finch,
feels its life flicker, little
flame about to sputter out, cups
the bird between his palms, softly
thumbs its chest to jiggle its heart
to keep the beat. What’s a finch
to a man? What’s a man to a finch?
Two-way dime-a-dozen. The man sits
on his bench, mindless as the bird
warming in his hands. Wits absent,
maybe coming back sometime soon.