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Double Negative
I fixate on the grammar of it, this missed miscarriage,
my failure to feel something amiss, the rudder
of silence steering far and against naming the percentage
to which I now belong. I want to dismiss the gender
of the situation, be free, like the doctor, to package
the facts and how little is actually known per
the female body’s instructions. It holds in storage
so many hormones that morning sickness persists
past the withering back, my breasts still swollen
with tenderness, two double negatives that nag
with each step about what they equal, so amateur
are they in their diction, talking of equivalence
to gravity, with its give and take, and swaggering
as they walk on this earth, as if I’m not even here.
California Drought
The pasture’s covered with so much dust, the cattle
won’t eat. I take the drive alone down the coast—
what else is there to do. A fire has dismantled
the trees, but cows are drawn to the charred ghost-
like stumps anyway, moved, perhaps, by a fractal
pattern invisible to us, or some basic need for a post
to cluster around—such doe-eyed stupid chattel.
It’s close now, the orchard where we did most
of our playing, the stream where we once floated
moss boats and tested the depths of the darkest
parts with our sticks. Everything was findable
back then. Just root around in the shallow mud
to see what comes of digging. But the smartest
of us knew that’s how trouble happens in fables.