---------
Passionate
Her breasts were twins
for him. He was dashing in his
uniform, Army Private First Class,
Maxwell Air Force Base,
Montgomery, Alabama.
Racism was in
then. Another fervent
bridge
between them.
My mother loathed “coloreds.”
Daddy feared “schvartzers.”
I’ve written
the uplifting narrative
of how my mother changed
over the years. Living in New York
turned her around.
At 80, in Montgomery,
she took to the streets
in civil rights protests
against the cancellation
of mid-town buses,
with placards
and young black men.
She stopped being afraid.
Edifying, right?
But those other years,
when fear and hatred bonded
my parents
with almost erotic
energy––
what shape does that take
on a chart
of family history?
How can we wipe that off
the map
without cancelling
my birth?
My Downward Dog
The A is crumbling like an ancient wall in Cahors. “Don’t you spot ruins
partout?” Between forests and highways, between
you love me and
dead air.
Someone will climb. Someone will marry them.
How to marry a wall?
Or a letter. Start by pride-swallowing.
Like alphabet soup, all beginnings.
When your letters clog
the heap, go out for wine.
Marry a book. You’re a writer.
Eat those words.
Note that A is still beautiful
while it crushes you.
A was loving at first.
Like reading the first book. Goldilocks.
Little bear burned by alphabet soup.
Like nothing else on earth,
but crueler. A stone alone in the field.
Castle in the distance.
Too far to throw.